When I first accepted Jesus as my Saviour, I thought that that acceptance would change my life instantly - healing me of the depression, hopelessness and suicidal tendencies that were distroying me.  It took me a long time to realize that there is no magic wand and, although Jesus promised to make me whole, He didn't give me a timeline.

 I am a much different person than I used to be.  I am a much more complete person.  My past experiences and hardships are tools that He uses now.  I thought that He'd instantly take them away.  He taught me that He can use even the ugliness and evil things to save His people.