NO it means blind in looking for god for mamn many years.It takes hard times and being alone to draw me to god and he has answered by keeping me alive with love and hope.I need not ask him for help pnly in bad times but need to thank him in good times also for it is him that gives that to me.O once went to court over a civil matter and told the court god is my judge and i answer to him,they looked silly at me but did not dare to comment.I know for all my actions on earth i will be judged by god so i know i need to make all my actions on earth godly.I have lived in hell on earth and i know how easy it is to run from god BUT now I know he never leaves me and looks over me always even if i sin iam forgiven if i ask him.

what power god has and what love he has wow.I was not born a christian and still learning about god and I pray to fully understand and worship him always.

Bless the lord and thank you